This blog began as a way for me to process grief after the death of my dearest friend in 2011. For six years it provided a place for me to write and rant and make new friends. During that time, I wrote constantly. When I wasn’t writing, I volunteered with several non-profits. In 2013, I decided to go back to school so that I could equip myself to solve a problem I had discovered, which was that many non-profit organizations lack effective leadership.
In 2016, I graduated. I was on a mission. I gave public talks about what I had learned during my study abroad in Romania. I reached out to people in public service. I applied for jobs in the non-profit and public sectors. I briefly served as interim Executive Director for an organization that had been wickedly mismanaged. A couple of other dead-end gigs with non-profits and dozens of job applications later, it was clear that I needed to pivot my job search back to the corporate sector.
Rejection and disappointment had negatively impacted me. One day in 2017, I stopped writing. My heart was no longer in it. I felt like I was in hell. It’s important to note that there are two hells. The public one of shared horrors, which too many are experiencing every day. This hell is vast and virulent. Then there is the private one. This hell is subtle, singular in purpose to devour you from the inside out.
I did the only thing I could. I went to Canada. It was only a short visit over the 4th of July weekend, but so restorative was that cool Canadian vibe that upon my return, I was refreshed enough to surf the internet. Low and behold, the perfect job had landed square in my LinkedIn feed. Almost exactly one year into my fabulous new job, I was furloughed due to the very public hell we are all sharing at the moment.
So, here I am, once again, blogging to process grief. And practice my video making skills.
13 thoughts on “2020 Testiment”
So happy to see you back! I, too, am catching up and reconnecting. Maybe it’s a sign, that so many of us are reaching out again. xo
Practicing my video making skills and searching for a way to pick up writing where I left off. I’m happy to see your comment. ❤️
You will slay it! No doubt.
I hope your position has only been put on ice for a while? Hang in there. -hugs-
Me too. Hanging in there is my super power. ~hugs~
I knew that. 😀
It’s sounds like you’ve negotiated plenty of ups and downs since you vanished from my inbox. But (selfishly for me) it’s great to have you back. I hope everything goes well for you. BTW your new vid is another feather in your hat.
Ups and downs are what make life interesting. And exhausting. Making the video taught me some new skills. Mostly how to endure an entire tutorial when I was just interested in learning one thing. Online platforms and the software that makes them enjoyable have become WAY more user friendly since I first started blogging. There are also WAY more options and content to sift through. Not complaining, just making an observation. (As you know I tend to do.) Nice to see you took the time to stop by. I missed you too.
welcome back and here’s hoping things fall back into place for you –
Thank you, Beth. Each day brings some new challenge or distraction. It all depends on our attitude, which is better some days more than others.
That is spot on
Welcome back! I thought I would write so much during isolation but it was the opposite and I am slowly getting back to putting words into the blogosphere. Keep writing!
Thanks. The blogosphere doesn’t seem to have run out of content without me.