Twenty-five years of professional experience and training enabled me to build a unique skill set within organizations both large and small. Being a parent has also provided opportunities to excel at training, entertaining and cleaning up messes both large and small. I achieved modest success while being mostly sleep deprived, and when my son went to college, I decided to devote my time to volunteering since his absence reduced the amount of working for free to which I’d become accustomed.
Community service, writing, oh yeah the writing, and classes keep me occupied these days. (and nights) This blog began as a way for me to work through my grief over the death of my dearest friend and as an outlet for the enormous task of marketing the book I wrote while caring for her in the final months of her life.
I am not a marketer. I am not a champion of social media. I am not now, nor have I ever been absolutely certain I am going about doing any of this correctly. Each day brings new challenges and some of the same old ones as well. My writing is improving. (IMHO) My purpose for blogging is evolving. My comfort level is increasing. Yesterday was a milestone of sorts for me personally. It was the first day in a long time I did not feel guilty. I didn’t feel guilty for living. I didn’t feel guilty for having high expectations or for choosing to do something good for myself. Yesterday was a guilt free day.
Yay! One in a row!
I am not a do-gooder. I am someone simply striving to do better. I have a long way to go. There have been times in my life when I’ve been consumed by anger. Mistrusting, harsh, resolved to see only what is because I thought what if was make-believe that offered nothing but disappointment. I know the full measure of being discouraged by circumstances out of my control, unexpected changes, even because of my own choices.
Disappointed? Discouraged? Depressed? Know this…
Start where you are. It’s a new day!